Ever present

Lavender calms the mind and eases stress and tension

Sometimes going away, even for short while really does gives me the distance I need to detach from useless energy. I’m always a little sad when I have to return to the “world” but I guess I wouldn’t appreciate the respite if there was nothing to retreat from.

I really am kind of a ridiculously private person. I don’t know where I get that from but I always feel way more energized after I’ve had sometime away where I’m able to be quiet and just listen to the silence of nature and watch the night stars. Saturday night the stars in Woodstock were just incredible! There were so many of them! My husband and I stood outside just looking up at them in total awe.

The really crazy thing about looking at stars is that it’s like time travel. You are looking at light that has taken millions of years to reach the human eye. I mean what the f*ck! Can you even really comprehend that? I shine a light somewhere in the galaxy and millions of years later someone sees it? Huh?

I can’t wrap my mind around it even now. Its just makes me realize how much more there is to this life, this universe than we will ever know, and how thankful I am to be able to cut off all the noise of my internal dialogue, all the chatter of external dialogue and tune in to something that is ever present. It is that ever-present quality that is at the core of what I seek most often in life. When I am able to connect to it I feel so much relief and contentment. It cannot be likened to happiness, which is more momentous and fleeting. It is simply a feeling that all the things I obsess over, think about, worry about, stress about, don’t really matter and are not really real essentially. They are dwarfed by the presence of something, which is eternally within reach and accessible to anyone should they wish to connect with it. No one has a monopoly over it. It belongs to us all.