This one was a little more difficult than the Pivot Questionaire but here are my answers for the record.
What is your idea of perfect happiness?
The signature on the bottom of my outgoing work email is as follows:
"There is only one success--to be able to spend your life in your own way." I don't remember who said that but I truly believe that. Without going into specifics, that is my idea of perfect happiness.
What is your greatest fear?
Not living up to my true potential. I don't think this bothers as many people as perhaps it should but then again maybe it shouldn't. That and pain... and waterbugs. I'm working on getting over the latter.
What historical figure do you most identify with?
I'm not sure I identify with a historical figure yet. I have a picture of Assata Shakur on my fridge. Not that I identify with her but I sort of envy her courage. She's smiling a very wise smile in the photo and it calms me often when I look at it. I hope to be able to have that expression one day.
Which living person do you most admire?
Is there really anyone admirable anymore? I admire my academic Advisor, Dana Ain Davis. She's funny, super fucking smart and she just really seems to enjoy life to the fullest. She also seems to derive something close to the same depth of love for eating and travel as I do.
What is the trait you most deplore in yourself?
My occasional coldness, my deep selfishness and the occasions when I use sarcasm deliberately to hurt.
What trait do you most deplore in others?
Small mindedness and lack of sense of humor. I can get along and find something to relate to in anyone but people without those two traits.
What is your greatest extravagance?
My collection of Blythe Dolls. Okay, just my collection of dolls in general.
On what occasion do you lie?
When I think it really won't hurt the situation or the person.
What do you most dislike about your appearance?
My gut because it's getting pretty gross.
What is your favorite journey?
Driving to Spring Valley with Francis on the weekends.When I need to disappear I do just that.
What do you consider the most overrated virtue?
Long hair on women.I get it! It's beautiful! But it's just hair. It's not a quality and it is treated like one all the time. Nope, you're not a new person, sorry! You're you with long hair.
Which living person do you most despise?
It's sad and useless to despise people but if I had to choose one person, it would probably be like Donald Trump. He's a fucking idiot who was never cool. I think he's his own biggest fan Yeah I really don't like him at all.
Which words or phrases do you most overuse?
Really? Dude! Nice! Like, ummm HELLOOO!! What the fuck?
What is your greatest regret?
Probably dropping out of college. But it couldn't be helped it seems; nervous breakdown and all.
What or who is the greatest love of your life?
Francis Daniel my fiancee, partner, best friend, playmate, teacher; more so than I probably even know. Sometimes I have a hard time believing he's really as amazing as he is but he is. And I'm lucky and thankful as heck.
When and where were you happiest?
I had a great childhood so probably when I was a girl. I was right where I wanted to be.
Which talent would you most like to have?
I would love love love to know how to play an instrument, drums, guitar or piano
What is your current state of mind?
The usual state of existential quandary and then lunch.
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I would be more business savvy and better at saving, so I guess a bit more practical and not so impulsive.
If you could change one thing about your family, what would it be?
I would have my parents still be together.
If you could choose what or who to come back as, what would it be?
A cat. I am a cat in spirit.
What do your consider your greatest achievement?
So far, not going completely crazy. That's not a small thing.
What is your most treasured possession?
My ability to laugh at myself and enjoy my own company. If I had to be around people all the time I don't know what I would so. I don't genuinely like very many people. My imagination. That's my most treasured possession.
What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery?
Probably being broke or out of work for a long time.
What is your most marked characteristic?
That's a tough one. People think I'm well spoken and intelligent on a wide range of subject. I continue to let them think that. I'm a Gemini so maybe my most marked characteristic is versatility. I often wish I could literally split myself up seven ways.
What is the quality you most like in a man?
Genuine kindness, intellect, sensuality and a great sense of humor will go far with me. That and nice eyes.
What is the quality you most admire in a woman?
Sense of humor, intelligence, creativity, confidence.
What do you most value in your friends?
Sense of humor, sensitivity, nurturing and communication. Being up for anything at any moment.
Who are your favourite writers?
James Baldwin, Haruki Murakami, Richard Brautigan I know there are more but those three are definitely at the top. If they wrote telephone books I would read them.
Who is your favourite hero of fiction?
That's hard, and makes me realizes I read a lot of men and books with male protagonists lately.Can't this question be about movies?
Who are your heroes in real life?
My mom, James Baldwin, Assata Shakur, Nikki Giovanni, Michelle Obama. I also think hero worship is overrated but we all do it.
What are your favourite names?
Oh brother. Sci/fi, Wink, Journey and Leumeria. Oh you mean regular names. I'm bored.
What is it that you most dislike?
Feeling trapped in any way or suffocated, unable to leave a situations or the company of a person I desperately want to leave.
How would you like to die?
Painlessly.
What is your motto?
"Everyone has their role in history to play. Mine is clouds."
-R.Brautigan
